I need to start knowing what I really live my life for. I need to start studying for a purpose, and most importantly to know where to go from there. I'm just studying for the sake of it and that makes it hard to motivate myself when I loose the momentum to study. I always tell myself that the people around me would help. But until when? I can't possibly rely on anyone particularly to set my mind right. It's me myself.

I'm just pissed at how school is, with what's happening in the class and all. I don't need all these to make my last year in school memorable for the negative reasons. I'm glad to have the close bunch but then again, who knows for sure how long these friendships would last? Knowing people for only two years is the same as barely knowing them at all.

I'm thankful for the friends that I have. I'm just sad that my hopes of having a close class is wayyyy off what is at present. There's no room for all that class thing anymore cause it's just a waste of time to even bother.

Spent my saturday out-of-the-ordinarily hah!
Morning, played squash with family at uncle's place. Then dad sent me to school to study with gerri. We studied, took breaks by playing tennis first, then hockey. The last time I really played on the pitch was during 3rd and 4th. Then went for guitar concert.


I wish school was nearer to home, I really do